The following quotes are taken from the Globe, Herald, ProJo, and redsox.com:
All during last season, this was kind of weighing on my mind. I didn't know what it was, and I kept taking CT scans every three months with the understanding that at the end of the season, [the surgeon] was going to take it out.
I went in the week before Thanksgiving; they took that out. That couldn't have gone better. There was no followup treatment, there was a CT scan every six months, no chemo, no radiation, none of that. I couldn't have been luckier. It's the things that happened afterwards that kind of threw me for a loop.
Right after that I got hit with an infection. That came right at the end of January, and into spring training. That put me right into Mass General for ten days, and then three weeks of antibiotics. That was probably worse than the surgery. I lost 25 pounds.
Looking back on it, it was probably my fault that I went to spring training. I wasn't strong enough [emotionally or physically]. So I started to crash. We got to Anaheim [after opening the season at home], and I went to bed, and the next morning I got up and felt like I got run over by a truck. I knew right there, I was trying to trick myself into thinking I could do this.
Don saw me crash firsthand. It wasn't fair to go on one day and work, and then not work. We all decided [at the end of April] that a leave of absence would be the best thing to do. With all that, it all finally came crashing down on me. ...
Physically, I'm back. Mentally, I think I'm on the right path. I've been fighting depression for the last couple of months. I'm in therapy for that, trying to get the meds right, trying to get all that right.
I can't watch the games on TV. I can watch the national games, because I wouldn't be working those. But the NESN games, I can't watch, because I'm supposed to be there. It makes me feel guilty, and brings me down even more.
It's been very hard for me. People deal with cancer all the time, people deal with depression. I'm not embarrassed by that. I'm not immune to all that. But I will say this - these last two years have been very trying. ...
I didn't know until 2:30 [today] that I was coming. It sounds crazy, but kind of a big step was coming to the McCartney concert because I got back to the ballpark. It's weird. I felt like, "I'm home." The better I felt, there had to be a day I had to come here. I looked at [my wife] today and I said, "I think I'm going to go in today." She said, "Get in there, get in, go hang around." ... I can't say I feel great, but I'm here, where a month ago, I would have not been here.
I'm anxious. I'm not going to lie. I feel a little nervous. I just want to get back to work — and get back into the flow of what I do. This depression thing's been tough.
I plan on coming back this year but I can't give a day because I've already passed two deadlines of my own